We all have our good days and bad days...

   Life is full of happiness and sorrow, goods and bads, highs and lows. Sometimes it seems as if days turn into months, and months into years of nothing but hardship after hardship. Then of course everyone says, "Well look on the bright side, you're breathing!" You so easily want to respond, "Am I even doing that right?" But you don't, well I don't out loud anyway.

     A few of my friends in different parts of the country are going through this very thing. Whether it be heart ache from a relationship ending out of the blue, or financial difficulties, to losing a child, a father and a bad divorce all in the same year. The trials and tribulations of life are not always easy, and often takes you to your breaking point. Believe me, I've been there, everyone has. It's who you are that makes these days something to remember, even though, right now you'd rather forget. You can't forget where you've been, or what you've been through. Treat the bad days the same as the good. Treat yourself the way you deserve to be treated and take time for yourself, whether it be to heal, find happiness, or to just drink a beer and make fun of stupid people on the internet.

      I'm not writing this as a thought out process, that would take the joy of writing away from me. It's my destressing time every night.

       I was bathing the boys tonight, thinking, man how can I afford to fix this, or buy that, or pay for this. I made a post earlier tonight regarding the fact that in one day (today) we had a flat, and our fuel pump went out. But I failed to post the fact that I met with a client and made a nice sale, or that I spent the day enjoying time with my family and a great friend, helping support her business.

     We get so caught up on the bad things that happen, that we forget about the good. Take time to enjoy your spouse, your children, your passion, regardless of whatever it is. If it's putting lipstick on and kissing a pig. Well it's your lips, and your pig (hopefully), if not I have a few you can kiss. Or if it's working on cars for a living, if it's become a hassle and a heartache, walk away if even for a day, and reach down deep and see what rekindles your desires, dreams, love.

     Nine months ago, I was injured on the job, I went from earning $6000 a month, to absolutely nothing. My employer challenged me, saying he had never lost a workman's compensation case. I offered him a way out and he spit in my face. From September to February, we had 0 income, I was hurting so bad I didn't get out of bed. We had to sell everything, just to pay our bills, and we did too, cars, furniture, animals everything. Then February came, and finally the judge ordered my employer to start paying. In April, I finally had surgery. Then in May, we decided to give this business a run for our money. 

       It took me until April to realize just how good we actually had it, or I actually had it. I had finally been able spend every waking hour with my wife and kids, where before, I was gone 22 days out of the month, and the other 8-9 days I was working 17 hours. The money was great, but that was it. It took my injury, and 6 months of complaining about not having any money coming in, or whatever else I could find to complain about to realize I had nothing to complain about. Everything I needed was here on this farm, and in this house.

     Now, with all this said, I know it's easier to write about your problems then to talk about them, for you don't have to see anyone judging you, or think they're judging you. Guess what, you can judge me all you want, because none of you control my happiness, only who is in this house.

      So please find your happiness, find a way to unwind, write a blog, go off topic, publish it for the world to see, and maybe just maybe you can help someone else, whether it be with a quick laugh, or a good cry. Just be yourself, love yourself, and tell yourself it's ok to be sad, angry and even maybe a little jealous or envious, as long as sometime in the near future, you find your happiness.

       To those of you having troubles, I'm thinking of you and hoping all things work out. To those of you who are reading because you read every night, thank you. For the new readers, please read some of my other blogs, and please follow up in the next few days with my other ones.

     I thank each and every one of you for reading and supporting our family farm.